do you ever have those days where you know you haven't smiled? I don't know why. But that's how I've been today. The worst part of it though, is that I know it. I know I'm frowning--- perpetually frowning. I know that Jake has every reason to be annoyed at my mood, and that I really have no reason to be so down and pissed off today. but I am.

These days happen. I don't really get it. I think it has to do with traffic and inefficiency and being in my car way too much, too much asphalt, too hot outside.... or its trying to recite to my boyfriend all the things that I have to do in the next two weeks. hearing him say, shit, sarah. and then realizing that I left out a fourth paper and a praxis exam.

can this post account for a blanket apology for being a pain in the ass?

Jake always jokes that I'm not fun anymore. It's mostly because I'm exhausted 90% of the time and can't sit still long enough to "hang out" without freaking out about something I should be doing.

I know I started off the year by saying I never want to leave Vanderbilt, but oh my god, I cannot wait for the next 2 weeks to be over with. I have 7 more days of class. and that, actually, makes me smile. alot.